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zeitgeist: addendum
zeitgeist: addendum
[2008-10-05]inérciaDemoparty2005 '08
done with id08, friday quite sucked in terms of attendance, left me extremly upset wondering why i still bother with the whole organizational ordeal crap. on saturday the turn out was abit better, even managed to cover our rental costs. i had fun despite alot of technical work, handling all kinds of projection and competition stress, the democompo entries were somewhat decent and everyone present seemed to have a good time, so i was quite happy in the end. i guess it was worth it, don't ask me if i'll do it again next year, i don't know yet.
[2008-10-05]081002
couple days ago went to check out secret chiefs 3 at plano b. was pretty decent despite not being totally my kind of thing, was more into the psychedelic noise side of some of their tracks.
that same day arrived in the post my newly purchased audio interface (tascam fireone) and stereo mic (edirol cs-15), still need to buy me some cable adapters and a midi controller (helder/e:4c might sell me his edirol pcr-50 if it's still working) to get busy with the things i want to try out music wise. i'm also having this finger masochism yearn to get a guitar, even if i can only strike a few chords i could still do something interesting with it through a chain of effects.
in the meantime, inércia is this coming weekend, so i'm busy reminding people that they should show up and present something. or if you aint an audiovisuals geek, the gig on friday should still be fun:
[2008-10-02]frog pocket
soopa were organizing yesterday a faca monstro event, playing live were ultimo, local breakbeat/dubstep/bigbeat dude and frog pocket from the uk planet mu breakbeat/idm scene. was great!
[2008-09-28]NNTS04
Not Normal that Shit 04 - best of jul/aug/sep 2008 features my "the lost religion of light" track :)
[2008-09-27]job me beautiful
job interview went quite well, they seemed quite interested in hiring. still have to iron out some details but it seems that im moving to another city before the end of the year.
[2008-09-26]mail swamp me beautiful
is it the international mail ps day or what? -_- will be busy all morning doing stuff to reply to all this stuff properly. how can i be unemployed and still need an assistant?! i should really stop opening more cans of worms, or atleast put the lid back on some of them. :S
[2008-09-24]080922
some good news for a change arrived this morning:
- altparty art exhibit proposal is officially approved
- have a job interview this coming friday
- friends coming over for drinks on saturday
[2008-09-23]080921
updated the website with some new stuff:
- new cover graphics made by visu for dark vault compilation
- my stream graphics compo entry
- print version of the pscs workshop paper
- print version of the msc thesis
learned a couple days ago that a mate of mine from univ whom i had lost touch since graduation had been struck with brain tumor over a year ago, the removal caused partial paralysis and he's been trying to recover since. suddenly my directionless life suicidal tendencies don't feel as important anymore, though i still have no fucking clue what to do with my life. getting a job would help i guess. been thinking more seriously of starting up a freelance / consultancy agency for webcode / graphic design / audiovisuals / artificial intelligence stuff. but i'm still very sceptic if the effort would be worth the book-keeping. i'm extremly reluctant to focus on webdev for a living.
[2008-09-21]080920
wasted the day walking in the rain, getting drunk and watching concerts. first with oocito2 at uptown, then katabatic at fnac, later at casa viva o presidente drogado, satnorte, josue o salvador and traumático desmame.
josue conquered my special mention award. fucking awesome gig.
[2008-09-21]thesis me beautiful
delivered my msc thesis today. good riddance.
now i need a job, anyone got one to offer me?
[2008-09-18]enoughrecords newsletter 18 september 2008
Few gigs coming up:
- Amplifica Som is promoting a Porto FNAC tour for Falésia 2 contributors katabatic, with dates on 19th and 20th of September.
- also on the 19th, old time colaborators HypnotikCircuit are organizing an event with liveact by Oocito II and guest dj Infekt[ion].
- more down south in Fábrica da Pólvora de Barcarena, Oeiras several projects from Thisco friends are also performing live: SciFi Industries vs Shhh.. on the 20th September 23:00; Structura and Mikroben Krieg on the 21st 19:00.
- Beats Play Free keep promoting netaudio through Portugal with some more dates: 19th September @ Quebra, Coimbra; 27th September @ Trampolim, Torres Novas; 3rd October @ Fábrica de som, Porto; 18th October @ Karas Bar, Beja.
- FLAC 1143 are promoting their neo classic / dark folk ambient at Fábrica de Som on the 4th October including a performance by recent enough releaser Massacre Divino.
New releases are available for download:
enrmp177 - Vysehrad - No Signal 3:50
Dark ambient album by Portuguese project Vysehrad
download
enrmp178 - HE-LUX - Native
an ambient trance ep by german project HE-LUX, also quite active in the graphic design and vj scene.
download
enrmp179 - Multifaros - Epiq EP
Small 4 track ep by Swedish young chip/8bit artist Multifaros. Easy listening 8bit stuff.
download
[2008-09-18]altparty.wdlog.080914
- decided to cancel project for dynamic demo competition.
- need to prepare materials for art exhibit and seminar presentation.
[2008-09-14]080909
paper submission for workshop was accepted on thursdays, spent my friday doing some minor rewrites on the thesis and failing to do any acceptable music in between, spent my saturday socializing at a friends wedding, so sunday and monday were all invested in finishing the final version of the paper following the reviewers suggestions, the deadline for the final delivery is today. which was met and mailed to co-writers for revision, waiting on them to tell me they have no time to even look at it before submitting.
finished with all the required communications for upcoming enoughrecords releases and general catchup interweb websurfing stuff before 2am, so i had this brilliant idea of trying some new musicmaking on the mac before hitting the sack.
except that once i launched the mac i felt an urge to test if the timeless demo linux port would work on macosx. which required to compile, which required sdl_sound, which is not macosx intel supported yet, which led me to download the latest version and try to port, which required to compile, which led me to download the latest mikmod framework, which got installed and included in the project but sdl_sound linker still wont recognize the lib's functions. which wasted me 2 hours of my life. atleast im learning more stuff about xcode, like how it wont import codewarrior projects without codewarrior installed, and where all the header, framework, library searchpaths stuff gets altered. i'd still rather wish it would just work.
[2008-09-09]rain me beautiful
had to walk home in the pouring rain from a nearby concert tonight. a fellow netlabel activist called tiago morgado was playing, doing some electro-acoustic experimental stuff with a violin and some mates on counterbass and sax, had it's moments, was worth the bother.
getting soaked by walking in the rain still feels quite wonderful, rain is nice, i like rain. i always did like the rain but somehow nowdays it's not really as inspiring as it used to be. i guess it's all part of playing the game but it's a shame really. i miss that naive long side of my personality that got slaughtered from blindly trusting others.
in the meantime more cv's got mailed, still no courtesy answers.
while i fail to figure out what to with my financial future i have a meeting tomorow to sign thesis delivery paperwork with supervisors, a wedding on saturday to depress me further, some new dates for inercia (3-5 october) and a desire to win something at altparty.
[2008-09-04]altparty.wdlog.080903
- submitted art exhibit proposal
- successfully installed processing shaders and opencv libraries under macosx
- managed to get processing building from eclipse, bye bye pde bullshit
- downloaded mac 4k sources, darwin refuses to build
[2008-09-03]hack me beautiful
got my hands on this Grey Hat Hacking, second edition book yesterday. very newbie comprehensive, nice stuff.
[2008-09-03]icos me beautiful
finally some concerts are happening again nearby, got to check out crushing sun and icos tonight. both pretty decent, the crowd was abit apathetic to crushing sun though, a real shame since the sound was really beggining for someone to start the mosh riot, i wasnt brave enough. icos was not so moshable but the ambient was just fucking awesome, loved it loads.
[2008-08-31]finger burn me beautiful
second time this week that i manage to burn my fingers, on both ocasions by cooking calamares, altering the way of cooking failed to prevent retaliation -_-
[2008-08-29]altparty.wdlog.080825
- brainstormed alone on art exhibit possibilities
- successfully installed sdl sdk, swimming whales works
- sdl_mixer refused to cooperate
- brainstormed with merlucin on dynamic demo possibilities
- successfully installed opencv, facetracker works
- downloaded openal installs
- downloaded neon2 sources
- downloaded kismet sources
[2008-08-25]siggraph me beautiful
finally got some time to go through the siggraph08 papers properly, found plenty of very interesting stuff as always.
i still have a very contradictory feeling bubbling inside me, on one hand this all state of the art research checking got me thinking of applying for a research position in a more serious project than the ones i been involved with, projects like this gameworld thing at tu wien cgg for example are exactly the kind of serious stuff i been considering doing for the past oh, i dunno, 10 years, and i seem to finally meet the requirements now. yet, i hesitate tremendously, mostly out of fear, of either not being accepted, or worse, being accepted and not being able to live up to the expectations.
i read these other researchers publications and they all seem to possess this mathematical savvyness and english eloquence that i do not. i easily understand the concepts explained and how to implement it, but i can't see myself ever writting in that form or discussing things with anyone using those terms and kind of equations. in my head it's all in an abstract form with self-coined synthetic "thingie" terms for refering to the 8 word descriptions others use, in my head it's completly obvious what i'm refering to when i use the non formally appliable terms that i do. unfolding it into a formal description others can understand is a bloody nightmare, it usually ends up on an overly complex sentence which doesn't really help anyone understand, possibly even confusing them more. and getting the right terms for the overly complex sentences is even worse, which is a key factor why i always detested writting reports and why writting the thesis i just finished was so fucking annoying.
but i fear abstraction and obfuscation are not representative of any superior or different ways to operate knowledge, they're just signs of lazyness in getting accoustumed to standardized communication channels. i'm required to subvert my individuality if i want to be understood. perhaps i been developing my "artistic" creative side of the brain too much to still care about being understood by the system since i only feel it a frustrating chore. a game that i won't ever be able to master, and thus i wonder if it's truly worth playing..
decisions decisions
[2008-08-24]altparty me beautiful
just booked my plane tickets to altparty, arriving on the 24th, leaving on the 30th, hopefully i'll be able to use the extra days to score me some paying job with my helsinki IT contacts. in the meantime guess i should start working on some productions to get my money back.
[2008-08-22]summer clean up
its been a very introspective week.. managed to do all the daily household chores, meet some local friends, educate myself with the latest news, culture and personal research interests. watch a couple interesting or entertaining movies and finish playing shadow of the collosus. i bothered to shave despite not having to actually leave home. the minor thesis revisions are well within schedule for delivery. all enoughrecords stuff is more or less up to date. cut some going nowhere issues from my todo list, and even found the time to update my website with the latest releases.
but somehow i still feel somewhat suicidal.. or maybe it's just loneliness.. i don't know exactly but things don't really feel as meaningful as they should. nothing overly alarming to what i'm used to feeling, but still.. i ain't enjoying this life, should defnitly change something about it.
[2008-08-21]ps - 080319 [at013]
out at audiotalaia
01. 304_080319
02. 332l_080319
03. 327_080319 / Life After / Finally The Moment Has Past
04. 274_080319 / Gravity Of The Moon
05. 353c_080319
06. 332k_080319
07. The Lost Religion Of Light
08. Disintegrates
09. 303_080319
download
[2008-08-19]macosx wifi me beautiful
dipswitch had no router hub at his place so i took the oportunity to get obsessed with finding open wifi for my mac. the standard probing system sucks ass ofcourse, so i googled stuff up and got kismet installed to properly sniff for access points. i found quite a few but most of them were private encrypted, so i started wondering, how secure is wifi nowdays? and i was somewhat disturbed to realize that most access points still use basic 128 WEP encryption, which reading a few homepages it seems quite clear that it isnt that safe at all. it's quite easy to crack the wep key, just need a couple days injecting for some IVs or doing ARP requests, and you can even spoof your mac address so the router will think your transmitting from someone else's machine. so basically, in 2008, you can still piggyback your neighbours internet without leaving a trace, it's quite scary in a way, luckily i don't have a wifi router at home.
[2008-08-18]